do you ever feel like your life is one huge mistake.
and as days pass by it gets harder and harder to save yourself from the drowning. and deep down it hurts...literally you can feel the pain in your heart...in your stomach.
the hopelessness is not just an emotional feeling...the pain it brings with it is more real then a broken bone.
i guess thats why they say never look back. because looking back hurts to much...causes too much pain. especially since you know life is like the old versions of super mario...you have to keep moving or the wall behind you is going to hit you and you're going to lose a life.
but everything seems to be going to fast...and its all a blur....and all i can think is please...please can we pause things.. can i have a few seconds to think things through....to evaluate my life and see what i have done to it.
are things really beyond repair..or am i just wistfully looking over my shoulder wanting something that seems so much easier and happier. maybe the solution is to stop looking back...but how can i when the past is what has so strongly influenced my present???
*sigh* i feel like i'm going to explode..or cry..or maybe just curl up and die. sometimes death feels like the easy way out.
and as days pass by it gets harder and harder to save yourself from the drowning. and deep down it hurts...literally you can feel the pain in your heart...in your stomach.
the hopelessness is not just an emotional feeling...the pain it brings with it is more real then a broken bone.
i guess thats why they say never look back. because looking back hurts to much...causes too much pain. especially since you know life is like the old versions of super mario...you have to keep moving or the wall behind you is going to hit you and you're going to lose a life.
but everything seems to be going to fast...and its all a blur....and all i can think is please...please can we pause things.. can i have a few seconds to think things through....to evaluate my life and see what i have done to it.
are things really beyond repair..or am i just wistfully looking over my shoulder wanting something that seems so much easier and happier. maybe the solution is to stop looking back...but how can i when the past is what has so strongly influenced my present???
*sigh* i feel like i'm going to explode..or cry..or maybe just curl up and die. sometimes death feels like the easy way out.
2 comments:
death would totally be the easiest way out if it werent for the whole afterlife thing that scares the crap outta me. and i agree... life should come with a pause button.
and maybe a backspace button too... and then ctrl alt del shud work with life as well..that way we can abort anything that doesn't seem to be working properly. *sigh*
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