warm regards...

has anyone ever ended a letter or email with warm regards? my husband does that...and i HATE it.

i find it gross and slightly pervy.

first off why not just send me your regards and i'll warm them myself. and secondly why ARE they warm...what have you been doing to them for them to become warm? its just gross... and then when they send their warmest regards...thats just.... yuck!

kinda reminds me of when you sit in a seat and its already warm from someone else sitting on it.. really gross.

i HATE sitting on pre-warmed seats.

and i really hate warm regards... a nice cold sincerely or thanks will do just fine.

do you ever feel like your life is one huge mistake.
and as days pass by it gets harder and harder to save yourself from the drowning. and deep down it hurts...literally you can feel the pain in your heart...in your stomach.

the hopelessness is not just an emotional feeling...the pain it brings with it is more real then a broken bone.

i guess thats why they say never look back. because looking back hurts to much...causes too much pain. especially since you know life is like the old versions of super mario...you have to keep moving or the wall behind you is going to hit you and you're going to lose a life.

but everything seems to be going to fast...and its all a blur....and all i can think is please...please can we pause things.. can i have a few seconds to think things through....to evaluate my life and see what i have done to it.

are things really beyond repair..or am i just wistfully looking over my shoulder wanting something that seems so much easier and happier. maybe the solution is to stop looking back...but how can i when the past is what has so strongly influenced my present???

*sigh* i feel like i'm going to explode..or cry..or maybe just curl up and die. sometimes death feels like the easy way out.

ho hum..

this was taken from Sarah's blog To Define is to Limit. i'm bored and depressed, and decided why not bore everyone else too.. the purple ones are true.

001. i miss somebody right now.
002. i watch more tv than i used to.
003. i love olives.
004. i love sleeping.
005. i own lots of books.
006. i wear glasses or contact lenses.
007. i love to play video games.
008. i’ve watched porn movies.
010. i have been in a threesome.
011. i have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
012. i believe honesty is the best policy.
013. i have acne free skin. most of the time.
014. i like and respect al sharpton.
015. i curse frequently.
016. i’ve changed a lot mentally over the last year.
017. i have a hobby.
018. i’ve been told i have a nice butt.
019. i carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
020. i’m really, really smart.
021. i’ve never broken anyone else’s bones.
022. i have a secret that i am ashamed to reveal.
023. i love rain.
024. i’m paranoid at times.
025. i would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
026. i need money right now.
027. i love sushi.
028. i talk really, really fast sometimes.
029. i have fresh breath in the morning.
030. i have semi-long hair.
032. i have at least one brother and/or sister.
033. i was born in a country outside of the u.s.
034. i shave my legs.
035. i have a twin.
037. i couldn’t survive without caller i.d.
038. i like the way that i look.
039. i have lied to a good friend in the past 6 months.
041. i am usually pessimistic.
042. i have mood swings.
043. i think prostitution should be legalized.
044. i think britney spears is pretty.
045. i have cheated on a significant other.
046. i have a hidden talent.
047. i’m always hyper no matter how much sugar i have.
048. i think that i’m popular.
049. i am currently single.
050. i have kissed someone of the same sex.
051. i enjoy talking on the phone.
052. i practically live in sweatpants or pj pants.
053. i love to shop.
054. i would rather shop than eat.
055. i would classify myself as ghetto.
056. i’m bourgie and have worn a sweater tied around my shoulders.
057. i’m obsessed with my blog!
058. i don’t hate anyone.059. i’m a pretty good dancer.
060. i’m a horrible dancer.
061. i’m completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
062. i have a cell phone.
063. i watch muchmusic on a daily basis.
064. i have cried myself to sleep.
065. i have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
067. i have never been in a real relationship before.
068. i’ve rejected someone before.

069. i currently have a crush on someone
070. i have no idea what i want to do for the rest of my life.
071. i want to have children in the future.
072. i have changed a diaper before.
073. i’ve had the cops called on me before.
074. i bite my nails.
075. i am a member of the tom green fan club.
076. i’m not allergic to anything deadly.
077. i have a lot to learn.
078. i have dated someone at least 10 years older or younger.
079. i plan on seeing ice cube’s newest “friday” movie.
080. i am very shy around the opposite sex.
081. i’m online 24/7, even as an away message.
082. i have at least 5 away messages saved.
083. i have tried alcohol before.
084. i have made a move on a friend’s significant other in the past.
085. i own the “south park” movie.
087. when i was a kid i played “the birds and the bees” with a neighbor or chum.
088. i enjoy country music.
089. i love my best friend(s).
090. i think that pizza hut has the best pizza.
091. i watch soap operas whenever i can.
092. i’m obsessive, anal retentive, and often a perfectionist.
093. i have used my sexuality to advance my career.
094. i love michael jackson, scandals and all.
095. i know all the words to slick rick’s “children’s story”.
096. halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
097. i watch spongebob squarepants and i like it.
098. i have dated a close friend’s ex.
099. i’m happy as of this moment.
100. i have gone scuba diving.
101. i’ve had a crush on someone i’ve never met.
102. i’ve kissed someone i knew i shouldn’t.
103. i play a musical instrument/s.104. i strongly dislike math.
105. i’m procrastinating on something right now.
106. i own and use a library card.
107. i fall in “lust” more than in “love”.
108. cheese enchiladas rock my socks.
109. i think the lord of the rings is one of the greatest things ever.
110. i’m obsessed with the tv show “lost.”
111. i am resentful that i have to grow up.
112. i am an entirely different person around different people.
113. i think the world would be a better place if people just smiled and meant it more often.
114. i think ramen is the best kind of food in the whole world.
115. i am suffering of a broken heart.
116. i am a nerd.
117. no matter where i am or who i’m with, i always seem to be lonely.
118. i am left handed and proud of it.
119. i don’t change who i am for someone else.
120. my heart resides below my feet. (i don't know what this means)
121. i am a senior in high school.
122. i enjoy smoothies.
123. i have gastritis.
124. i have nothing better to do with my time.
125. i am listening to radiohead right now.
126. most people call me by my middle name.
127. i once stole a music stand.
128. pi confuses me.
129. i love nascar!
130. i own over 200 cds.
131. i work 7 days a week.
132. i have mono.
132. i don’t have the ability to make decisions without changing my mind.
133. people tell me i have a horrible sense of humor.
134. i’m only wearing underwear.
135. i had more than one thanksgiving dinner this year.
136. i’ve driven to a different state to see a band i liked.
137. i am the most over analytical person i know.
138. i believe in wasting time.
139. i don’t listen to too much music.
140. i have a shoe fetish.
141. my favorite holiday isn’t christmas.
142. i prefer weeks off of work instead of days here and there.
143. i love sex
144. i wanna go home.
145. i don’t know what i would do without my friends.
146. christmas threw up in my dorm room and i love it.
147. friends is (one of) my favorite tv shows.
148. i’m hungry.
149. i’m still angry about the nip/tuck season 2 finale cliffhanger.
150. i’m a potterhead and proud of it!
151. i noticed there are several numbers missing from this list, making this very much not the 151st entry.
152. i lied about one of the items on this list.
153. my siblings are my best friends. my sister is one.
154. i believe cheese should be its own food group.
155. i have a problem expressing things.
156. i have lost a parent.
157. i am the most deprived person i know on the face of the planet.
158. i have at least one test tomorrow that i am not prepared for yet.
159. i love slim jims! even if they are really bad for you.
160. i am sick and tired of school so i am not going.
161. i love sundance.
162. i do not watch television.
163. i love starbucks coffee drinks.
164. i am living at least one lie right now.
165. i love wearing skirts, even if its winter.
166. i’m a techie.
167. i am writing this far, far too late/early.
168. i’m a little crazy.
169. i like the smell of white tic tacs.
170. i know at least one person in a “life or death” crisis at this moment.
171. i don’t associate myself with any political parties.
172. i always know all the gossip at my school/workplace/whatever, and nobody ever suspects it.
173. i have thought about suicide.
174. i have no idea what i am going to write for my question.
175. i can be selfish.
176. i’m so emo at times.
177. i can solve a 3x3 rubik’s cube.
178. i think the human race is evil & should be demolished.
179. i cheated on a test before.
180. i am a member of animemusicvideos.org
181. i’m sick of drama
182. i need a job